I've been received an instant messenger or sometimes we called it as Im from this one strange boy. Basically, it looks like this. 

Him: Akak, nak tanya boleh tak?

That time my heart went crazy. *pitpatpitpat* I dont know, this one strange feeling suddenly came. I dont know what to do, then I decided to answer it like this 

Me: Apa dia ? *trying not to look akward* 

I tell you, while waiting for that boy to reply, it feels like thousand years. My heart went crazy again, I felt butterfly in my stomach. My hands are trembling. Then suddenly he reply.... 

Him: Tak, nak tanya sihat tak ? 

I found myself smiling alone like a kid who just got their favourite candies. And the most weirdest thing is, I dont even know that boy. I smile, I realized even one small boy can make my heart went crazy. Hands are trembling. Butterfly in my stomach wont stop. 

You see, actually this entry is not related at all with this boy. It just, I've been realized that its been a while... It's been awhile I found myself chatting with a boy. 

Look, I swear, after you go sayang, I become more reserved . Me and boys are akward. I repeat it was akward... If there one boy who wanted to be friends with me or what, I felt akward. 

I dont know, I just dont know. I forgot how to be friends with a boy. 

Truth speaking, for those who know me, there will know that I am a shy person *hihi :P* I cant make friends easily like the others.

So sayang, I only found comfortable if I'm with you. Only you. But then again, you left. You know what, It's been 2 years you left, but I'm still find a way how to suit myself without you by my side. 

If one day, you decided to talk to me again, I just wanted to tell you that, thank you. Thank you for teaching me how it feels like when you are in love, how it feels when we are be loved and thank you for trying to be friend with me eventhough I know, I am a scary person *hehehe* And lastly, thanks God for giving you the urge to tegur me otherwise I will not know the existence of you. 

With lots of love, Eiyaa *the one who now is trying to not be akward with boys*

p/s: For boys, dont be scared of me, I wont bite. my fangs had been removed long time ago :P